New Found Happiness

You know, I've always been this cranky and hot-tempered girl. Especially during work, I would scold my MAs when they do things that piss me off. Well, a lot of things pisses me off.

So one day, I scold this MA when she told me she doesn't know how to use a vacuum cleaner. Then, a couple of weeks later, when she saw me looking tired and worn out, she offered me her chair to rest on. At that instance, I felt guilty and ashamed of myself. She had repaid my insolence and haughtiness with kindness.

And for some reasons, I felt some changes in me soon after this episode. For some strange reasons, I began to feel peace in my heart and mind. I do feel anger, but I am able to bring it down before hurtful words come out of my mouth. I think that it is a really wonderful feeling. To treat people kindly and with respect. To be able to smile when you really feel like smiling, to laugh when you feel like laughing. It's all so genuine.

And now, I am able to talk and joke with my MAs and other people without being like a hot-headed, crazy woman, just like before. I have also learned to take things easy. Just shrug them off, if you know what I mean.



"Try it. It's addictive."